Loving God more than the Ministry

It seems like in my walk with the Lord over the past few months that as I have been seeking Him for blessing over the ministry and the Impact Kids meetings that He wants more of me. In a season of ambition, plans and vision for the never ending push to see the horizons of ministry expand I have been awakened to the emptiness of seeking God’s benefits without relationship. It really is empty at the end of the day and disappointing when God says ‘NO’ to request no matter how eager you knock on the ‘Doors of Heaven’.
I have been debating in my mind, do I need to persist in the ‘asking’ like the persistent widow seeking justice from a judge? Perhaps, but there has been a prompting to look deeper in my prayer life, a quest to examine the state of my heart relationship with God.
My soul searching this new year has resulted in a realization that my love for ministry, and progress has strongly competed for my affections for Jesus Christ. While praying for great impact in the world, energy, love and passion for God has been sucked dry.
Seeing the passion dwindle I have been praying for a hunger and thirst for God himself- not a hunger and thirst to pray for more inpact in the world but a eagerness to rest in the arms of Jesus.
In addition I pray for a hunger and thirst for His Word. I want to saturate myself in scripture meditation.
Last, I have been holding off on talking so much to the Lord in my prayer life and instead doing more listening and waiting.
In the end I don’t want to have spent my days loving ministry more than God. What would it gain me if great impact was made in the world for the Kingdom and my passion and affection for Christ conisted of a tiny spark?
Well, I know all it takes is a spark to get a fire going- May God fan the flame of love for Him through practicing more of His presence, through simply enjoying Him, reading His Word, and doing more listening to what He has to say.

“One thing I ask of the Lord, this is what I seek: that I may dwell in the house of the Lord all the days of my life, to gaze upon the beauty of the Lord and to seek Him in His temple. ” Psalm 27:4

Prayer Request

Would you pray for our four Impact Kids ministries. (Lake George, Rancho, Bristol Elementary and Green Tree apartments) Pray in this way:

In every one of these communities are transient families that come and go. We want every kid whom the Lord will draw to have a chance at salvation before they become hardened by the world.

Pray that God would appoint, ordained and draw specific kids to these meetings to hear the plan of salvation.

Also we examine needs around us there are adults in Rancho that seem interested in the new Samoan Church starting in the rural
Rancho area. (There is a group of ethnic Samoans who live in Colo. Spgs, who want to worship according to their traditions. They purchased cheap land in Rancho and have begun meeting there. We attended one of their services. They are a welcoming and loving people however 60% of their service was in Samoan) A new church building there has brought a spiritual interest on behalf of some of the parents whose Kids attend Impact Kids.

Is the Lord leading us to start a Bible study out there? Pray for the Lord will lead us in what to do.

Another part of our Job Description

We are called to work with Kids. There has been no greater joy than to see unchurched students hear and grasp concepts of the gospel. Another part of our job description as AMF missionaries (At least what I added to it) is to connect rural pastors with each other.

Last Wednesday I logged in over 150 miles on Interstate and rural county roads attempting to connect two rural pastors that minister within 30 miles (30 miles is nothing out on the Eastern plains of Colorado) from each other. They had never met. Before our Impact Kids meeting that after-noon I picked one of them up south of Colorado Springs and drove east to introduce him to a young pastor young enough to be his son. Was the 150 miles worth it? It was evident from the get go as the Spirit of Christ united these two spiritual shepherds who minister to sheep on the prairie. They chatted about everything from pressing ministry issues and concerns in their church to personal needs. I just sat there next to them and shot the breeze letting them dig into each others lives while I relaxed in a available recliner inside the church parsonage.

Rural pastors in areas like Eastern Colorado can be isolated. It’s not good for Christ’ shepherds to be alone. Pray their bond will grow behind a single visit. Pray others will join their fellowship.

IN 2010 We Saw

* An estimated 105 different kids attend at least one of our
regular weekly ministries.

* Four new ministries were formed (Green Tree apt., and Bristol Elementary school Impact Kids Outreach, Danae’s Princess party ministry to girls, and a Tuesday night prayer meeting)

* 12 conversions to Christ

* 9 opportunities to preach or share our mission work with churches

* Doors open to lead 5 VBS’ and organize another 4 for a visiting AMF team. We saw an estimated 95 students attend using over 15 volunteers.

A New Goal for the New Year

I am always looking ahead to the next project. I pride myself in strategy, developing ways to start a new outreach in our region. This past Fall I felt sure God was leading us into starting another apartment complex ministry in city’s crime ridden southeast side. I pushed our way into talking to three different managers of multi-housing units, but to no avail. One of them said, “No, not interested!” Another, after several failed attempts to even speak with a director, I finally concluded the Lord, must be saying no.

Danae and I following the disappointing results felt led to start a Tuesday night prayer meeting in our home. We were being called to sit and wait and let the Lord lead (Acts 13:1-3) We called friends to join us, as we sought out God to establish another work in our city. The first evening that we prayed, a gal attending spoke of a conversation she had with her daughter’s school principal. She explained with excitement in her voice how he had a burden for the kids that were attending, and that he prays daily for his school. He even invited her to a mom’s prayer meeting each week.

‘Ah, ha an open door!’. It wasn’t long before we concluded that God might be opening a door for a new work at what will be our third public school ministry beginning January 12th at Bristol elementary school

A goal of mine for 2011 is to do more seeking, listening and waiting for God to act, versus shoving my way into possibilities that are outside what He is wanting to do. In what areas of your life do you need to simply need to do more seeking, listening and waiting?